Me this morning
I've been such a lump lately. I was sick on and off for over a month. I haven't been to the gym in over three weeks as a result. My diet has been off lately as well. I've been dealing with a shoulder problem for a while now, which has kept me from any serious martial arts training. And today is tax day, which has become my annual "feeling down about life" day. I know that's just how emotions are. They contribute to an ebb and flow to life. Even when things aren't that bad, we have those times in which we feel like it could all come crashing down at any moment. There are days when we feel "in the zone," and there are days when we feel rather, well, lumpy.
Last year I embarked on an ongoing journey towards peace. It's all about finding balance in life. I have an obsessive personality. I tend to go all in on things that interest or excite me. I'm part of the "gamer" subculture, but I don't play many games. Mainly, I just play Magic: the Gathering. It's not because I don't think other games are interesting: I just can't obsess over more than one game. I can't divide my focus, because I don't play games casually. That's why I can look at a random Magic card and tell you random details, like who did the artwork, or which set it's from, or what deck it was in that won the pro tour back in 1996. Balance is difficult for me because I tend to obsess.